Finals is causing me so much anxiety, that I’ve been up for 3 days straight, maybe falling asleep for an hour each night, until some random thought about finals scares me back awake.
And it’s so annoying, because I get anxious about finals, thinking I need to study more… but I also need sleep if I want to focus on the actual testing process, so I get anxious about needing sleep and needing to study, and I end not doing ANY of these things…then I stay up all night just having thoughts race through my head. sdkfjhglsdkfjhgkfsdjhglksfjdhg
Finals please be over. Please give me that A I want.
I swear, I will not make a good adult if I get stressed out this easily.
The pages of my favorite books are tattered
I got interested in collecting manga back when I was in middle school, 9 years ago (wow, time flies). Back then, I had friends who were very obsessed with keeping their manga books in pristine condition. They would barely open the book to keep from bending the spine and pages, they would turn the pages ever so slightly to avoid damaging the delicate thin pieces of paper, and they would hold the book as if it were a fragile baby, resting the book ever so slightly on their light pinkies to avoid any spinal scruffs.
I wanted to be like them. At that time, I saw them as cooler—they were two years older than me. They were “mature” eighth graders, while I was just a naive sixth grader who had just gotten into loving manga, so I decided that I would treat my manga, and other books, like they treated theirs.
I laugh about it now, but I remember having friends borrow my manga books, and getting seriously angry at them, seeing my book come back to me in “less than new” condition, telling my 6th grade self that I would never loan them another book. I mean, if you carry around a book in a backpack or in a binder, it’s bound to get damaged a little each time… which brings me to a quote I saw at the beginning of Tegami Bachi.
"The pages of my favorite books are tattered. I keep the books I love within arm’s reach, and read them over and over. The tattered pages show how much I love them.”
—Hiroyuki Asaka (author of Tegami Bachi), 2006.
He also continues with,
"I hope you wear out the pages of Tegami Bachi."
The more I think about it, the more I realize how true this is. Although I tried to keep my books in mint condition, because I loved them so much, and carried them around so much, they became damaged over time… and this goes for all my books (and even for all my possessions).
If I loved a book, I would carry it around with me, in my backpack. I would steal a peek each free time I had. Carrying it around in a backpack full of pencils, other textbooks, and other school supplies would naturally damage the book over time. I would carry the books I loved reading, around with me all the time; so naturally, they would become damaged from travelling so much.
I would also fall asleep in bed reading my most favorite books, and sometimes I find that I accidentally fell asleep on them, or the book would fall off the side of my bed… and naturally, this would cause the book to be damaged… and because I loved reading these books each night, these books accumulate more damage each time.
I continuously come back to my favorite parts, opening and closing the book each time, bending that spine, turning those pages, and fangirling at those awesome scenes (and if you fangirl like me, that book is definitely going to get damaged).
I just found it funny how I started out trying to keep the books I love in mint condition, yet when I take a look on my bookshelf, my most favorite books are the most damaged. You can tell that I’ve read them over and over, reliving the stories I love, over and over in my mind.
So, I came to realize that, just because a person doesn’t take very good care of an item, it doesn’t mean that they didn’t like the item or didn’t appreciate it; it could just mean that they loved and appreciated it so much, that it wore down.
And with that, it’s late, and I should probably sleep now since I have class tomorrow ^^;.
Curry, Boba, Books, etc….
Today (although technically yesterday, since it’s past midnight) there was a volunteer meeting for Anime Vegas 2013 at a curry place~ There isn’t much on the menu, every thing on there is so yummy *_*. I planned to take a picture of the food (before I ate it), but I always forget to…. It seems I can’t follow this “take a picture of your food” trend…. *sigh*.
Anyway, instead I took a picture of the finished plate….. to signify how yummy it was… ehehe ^^;.
After that, my best friend and I went to China Town and got ourselves some Boba, while killing time walking around the “mall” area~ We had planned to study later in the afternoon, but the library’s tables were all filled by people :/. With no tables to study on, we ended up exiting the library, but nearby, where was a section where the library was selling books!
The books were all SO CHEAP. Like seriously, almost free. Evelyn got nine books, all adding up to the total price of $2.25!!
. I haven’t heard some of the titles before so sorry if some manga is inappropriate (although I doubt they’d have highly inappropriate manga in a library), but each book, novel included, was 25¢!!! A quarter each book! They were all in “like new” condition too… honestly, I don’t now why they didn’t raise the price higher when the books were in such good condition, but I guess I don’t mind. Two of the books were mine, and I don’t mind at all having those prices so dang cheap.
After buying the books, we headed back to Evelyn’s house and tried to study a but…but sadly we get distracted way too easily ;^;.
I think it was a productive day… I mean, curry, boba, cheap books, and studying (sorta) all in one day XD.
I’m half awake at the moment… so I might fix up this entry when I have time, but it’s been a while since I went out and did a lot of things, so I’m happy =3.
My summer classes finished today~ Huzzah!
I didn’t do as good as I wanted to, but I still for a great grade overall, so I’ll take it! Now I have 2 weeks of break before I have fall classes =3.
I know this might seem a little weird, but I saw these little pill bottles in a shop Chinatown two days ago, and thought that they were really cute. Not only do these “pills” have cute faces on them, but they also….
open up to reveal little paper that can be used as mini letters! These bottles are pretty small, and the pills are about the size of regular medicine pills (I think the pictures make them look bigger O.o?).
I thought that this pill-letter thing was so creative and cute! I mean, imagine confessing your love to a crush by giving them a bottle of pills, them being all confused at first, but then going home and opening one of these babies and finding out that there was a secret letter inside (or maybe I’m just imagining too much :<)!
At first I didn’t know that they could open up, but I shook one, wondering if there was really some sort of medicine inside, and realized that it sounded like there was something stuck inside; I opened one up and found a rolled up piece of paper XD.
These cute pill bottles came in a pack of three different bottles, but I gave the blue bottle to a friend for her birthday. I wrote a little message on the little paper and placed the rolled up message in pill, but I’m not sure if she knows that these pills open yet. At least if she does figure out in the future, she’ll be in for a surprise secret message~
As for the ones I have… I use them as decoration on my bookshelf, and I have written little encouraging messages in them for myself~
Sakura Nagashi - Single
Lately, I have been listening to this beautiful song. This song makes me feel sad and happy at the same time though :<.
Lately I have gotten back into loving the anime “Durarara!!” because the plot line is just so interesting and thought provoking.
I also got this as a wall scroll hanging on my wall right now :D.
I have to mention first that my most favorite characters in this anime are Shizuo, Celty, and Anri. What do these three have in common?—they’re all victims of Izaya’s manipulation (actually, pretty much everyone in the show is a victim to Izaya’s meddling), whether they know it or not. Izaya has a way of acting behind the scenes, making it seem like he isn’t involved, but I have to say I agree with Shizuo when he says that he thinks that most of the violence in Ikebukuro was caused by Izaya.
Anyway, I was discussion of Durarara and Izaya with a friend; she happens to love Izaya, while I absolutely despise the dude.
She states that she loves Izaya as a character and because of his intelligence, but I can’t hulp bet hate him DX. I guess, I love Izaya as a character, just based on the fact that his “character” made me hate him so much XD.
The college I go to recently added cameras to the classrooms. Not security cameras, but high quality recording cameras that can recording lectures, which is very exciting =D. My Biology professor decided to take advantage of this new technology and he now records every lecture; now I can go back and see every lecture he has ever did in the class so far. I have to say that IT HELPS LEARNING A LOT. Seriously. I’m the type of person who daydreams often during class, so I end up missing a lot during class, but holy smoke, re-seeing the lectures online when I go home and can concentrate is really helping me learn.
Yay for new technology!
Agh, so hot X_x.
Whoa, calm down there weather. I don’t want my car to die of the heat O_o.
On that note, happy 1st of July~
Perfume on itunes~
Perfume, one of my favorite groups (because their sound is so unique *_*), just put a whole bunch of songs on itunes :<. 100+ songs! I feel like I will go poor soon ;^;. I’m happy that they’re putting more songs on itunes though~ Maybe they will get a bigger fan-base because their songs are more accessible now =3.
Kingdom Hearts colour tag - Axel/Lea, red.
Red personalities are known their passion, forcefulness and impulsiveness. They are known for seeking revenge and their often violent attitudes. However, their ability to possess strength and the passionate love that they extend to others is enough to make up for their hotheadedness .
Other possible colour(s): black (committed)